Thursday, May 14, 2009

Everything I'm not made me everything I am.

It's a weird thought that the things that don't define you actually are the things that ultimately make you the person you are.

I'm not wealthy: I think most people would be crazy if they didn't want to have everything they could ever desire. However, I've had to work for absolutely everything I have now, and am content with a lot less than the norm.

I'm not non-judgmental: it's made me more humble when I've been wrong.

I'm not cautious with my words: it's taught me to think more about what I say.

I'm not incredibly open with my feelings: it's forced me to communicate better.

I'm not musically diverse: it's made me extremely specialized and well equipped to handle my urban clients and my work in the hip hop market.

I'm not overly competitive: it's saved me from a lot of disappointment from perceived failure.

I'm not perfect: it's made me rely on God, family, and friends.

I'm not a sell-out: it's helped me persevere through tough choices, difficult people, and life changes.

I'm not a kind, wise, or brave person: I've had to pray for all of these things, and it's made me realize just how much I'm not really the focus of this life, how it's not all about me, and how much I fall short from the type of person I would like to be.

I'm happy with how I've grown up and how I'm continuing to (hopefully) evolve, and I expect to keep learning more about myself. I'm finally feeling comfortable in my own skin, and I like it.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

So I don't want to sound too cheesy but this almost made me cry. Makes me really happy I married you.